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Perfume - the story of...

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Sat, 21 Nov 2009 22:54:00 +0000

I remember being pretty impressed by the movie "Perfume - the story of a murder".
Today I had the chance to create a unique perfume myself by blending various essences.
Musk and jasmine. Vanilla and cardamom. Moss and grass. Citrus and flower. Some strong, heavy, earth smells. Some light, airy and fleeting like a summer breeze. Some fresh and crisp like the dew on a spring morning. Others - spicy, fiery.
I learned something very interesting - when u are trying lots of perfumes, to get rid of the scent, you need to smell some coffee beans.
And then, such an exciting, invigorating and intimate experience. Combined with some chocolate fondue and white wine...and of course good company...it was a pure pleasure for the senses.

Dilli comes from heart

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 12:15:00 +0000

It has been almost a year since I left Delhi.
The city I fell in love with, but could not love properly. There was a distance between us.
Not only the physical distance of kilometers, but also a gap of not-belogingness.
Often I wonder if it would be a bit different if I did live in Delhi itself, not in Gurgaon. Or maybe if I was braver to venture beyond the well-trodden touristic parts of the city. Did I need a local guy as a guide? Could I get one without being entangled in a dramtic love-story? Questions remain.
I know I will be back.
In the meantime, I discovered this amazing photo blog - The Delhi Walla - I love it!
Mayank Austen Soofi tells me stories of places undicovered, of stories unheard, of characters unmet.
And of course, one more proof that the Law of Attraction works - I started reading a book, called Burnt Shadows by Kamila Shamzie. (A story of a Japanese girl that survives the nuclear bomb in Nagasaki, moves to Delhi at the time of the Independence and partitition.)
In the book, there is the separation of the Old Delhi (Mughal one) and the New Delhi (the British one).
Old Delhi is Dili, the city of heart. The lost home.
A part of my heart is also longing to come back to this secret, lost, out-of-time part of the city...As if, I had been there another time, in different circumstances.
You know the feeling, don't u?

love show

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 20:09:00 +0000

it's painless
letting your love show.

maybe, but not always.
how do i know if it is painless in this case?

high on love?

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 14:37:00 +0000

something strange is going on...
I feel high on love with no particular reason :)or maybe there is one.
A blissful afternoon on the balcony
Warm autumn sun
Tea and a chat with a friend
And some good music...

do you know how it feels to love you?

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 19:22:00 +0000

do you know how it feels to love you?
brilliant.

those moments

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 19:46:00 +0000

sitting in the park today with a book, trying to catch the last bits of sun
listening to Summertime
thinking how fast the summer went
as always
yet not regretting it is gone!just enjoying the aftertaste of it.
the warmth of the light on my face and the love in Ella's voice
the smooth narration of the book and the people passing by
then, something happened
as if time and space expanded and the world shrank into me
and i could feel it contained within myself
Is this God?
I dunno...But it felt so right and natural :)
And yes...God bless talented people that inspire me lately.
Macy Gray for example...her cover of Creep just gives me the shivers!It is so beautiful. Sad, but the kind of aesthetical sadness.

Isn't it Ironic...

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 20:20:00 +0000

Alanis Morisette has that Lyrics in "Ironic" :
"Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face"

This week I had a proof of that.
I was all in that happy positive blue-sky-no-clouds mood, loving everyone and being generally happy. When I recieved some not-really good news - that I need to give money. A sum I cannot afford at the moment. So suddenly - everything came crushing down, clouds start gathering, i become gloomy and worried etc. It is really amazing how worrying - in most cases - unnecessarily about some things can really change our whole perception of life. It is so human to concentrate on some daily hiccups that we meet on our path...and so stupid really, cause in most of the cases - solution can be found...
Anyways...as I was walking in the centre of Sofia, all looking down and engulfed in my own black thoughs, suddenly a girl stops me at the traffic light.
"Hi Sve", she says.
I look at her - What the...I don't know who she is!
She sees my bewliderment.
"Yeah, we do not know each other", confirms the girl. "But I read your blog and I find it nice".
Do you believe me this very moment made my day?
Like, just when I thought that - whenever u are down - something really nice shows up as if to say "Hey, life is beautiful...don't forget it".
And...it is in general.
I flew paper-lanterns for the first time.
The event that I was organizing went well, people were happy :)Me - even happier. There was so much positive energy around it.
I spoke to Anca and Stef - closest friends and colleagues from India. And for a thousandth time thanked God I did not return there at that time.
And today - we spent some quality time lazying around, cooking, drinking wine and purring in the sun with the girls from work.
It is really a blessing to have such amazing people around me.

lately I have been thinking

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 20:55:00 +0000

Sometimes love works better from a longer distance. Being too close for too long is not always a recipe for happiness.

unpredictable ;)

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 20:44:00 +0000

I love the unpredictability of life.
It is just so amazing!
In the past week so many wonderful things have happened to me out of the blue...
going to the seaside
having a very strange chat/video conversation charged with loads of smiles and love
lying on the grass in front of school, watching the sun set behind vitosha
being invited to some magic lantern evening
and to lazy sauna saturday
and to a walk in the park with a magical couple :)
And the big event on Friday looks good...

I am all vibrating with excitement, love and gratitude...
and can't stop myself from smiling :)

goodwill

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 18:39:00 +0000

I am so excited about my job as I have not been since my days in AIESEC!
We are doing a fair with service organizations that are going to present their work in front of our kids.
There is so much creative energy and love that buzz around that it is bound to be a success!
And I can feel the people smiling on the other side of the phone while talking to them.
The snowball of goodwill keeps rolling and rolling and gets bigger and bigger :)
Hope we can make a difference to some lives!

unexpected

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 17:56:00 +0000

"Can you stay a minute so I can watch you for a while?"
Made my day.

Thank you, Father :)

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 21:26:00 +0000

A sunrise, a shooting star, a rainbow and a sunset...
How much beauty can be in just a few hours?
How much love does someone deserve to be given?
How much pain can one cause in a lifetime, unintentionally?
How much strength do you need to forgive?
How much happiness can a heart hold?
Time is relative.
Love is absolute.
Thank you Father, for knowing again what is best for me!

free love

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 20:46:00 +0000

I read some interesting stuff in a magazine today.
When men cheat on their partners this has nothing to do with feelings. It is how they are programmed.
The female part of me wants to say "Yeah, right - good excuse as always"
The male part agrees - fair enough - we all need some change. Why not have some fun if it does not affect your priorities in your relationship.
Starting to understand more and more the concept of love a friend once shared
U can sleep with anyone you want, as long as you remain faithul to each other
Let's make it clear that this is freelove.

close the door

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Thu, 06 Aug 2009 20:46:00 +0000

a heart is a room
a corridor leads there
a corridor with many doors
when your heart gets broken you close a door
sometimes more than one at a time
what does it take to get them open again?

Cheers to the Doors!

and our love becomes a funeral pyre!

erase &rewind

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Wed, 05 Aug 2009 20:43:00 +0000

people
places
faces
why is it so hard to change a habit?
to let the vacuum enter your life and suck certain experiences in.
the obsession of writing the script of a never-ending book is on me...
I see the lines in my head while observing people.
she is crazy, talks a bit too much but it is just because she wants to make a important point. she is not boring, not at all. he is nice to talk to, though deadly confused of what he wants to do in life.she needs someone to be gentle to her - too much of playing the role of a matcho girl.he has the cutest smile and loves fun...but then what.she is afraid of growing old and being alone and she never stops talking about herself.he wants to reach out for her but God, she is too much and scares him...I mean who wouldn't be scared...
and this never ends...
erase. and rewind.

creating space

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 20:16:00 +0000

Sometimes a single line written by someone close can make you happier than thousand words.The simplicity and sincerity of it makes me love him so much!
Sometimes...you just need to make some space.
Clean and rearange the closet.
To let new experiences in.

a-day-before-the-b-day

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 21:37:00 +0000

I made it out of the darkness again.
I carefully wrapped the memories and images and put them in a drawer to be used later on for my supposed-to-be-written book.
You need to distance yourself from personages and places you are writing about.

Now there is only light and happiness. Happiness is here and now. The past had to happen that way, not any other. The future - it will come in the best way possible.
But the precious gem to hold in my hand is NOW. To be healthy and young, free,inspired and loving.
Thank you for all those amazing gifts!

go after her...

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 21:07:00 +0000

I guess sometimes it works.

from a hopeless romantic

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 20:53:00 +0000

Wondering why men need some reason to be romantic.
Maybe it is just how it is meant to be.

Someone has to have the guts and creativity to surprise me :)

metrosve

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 17:12:00 +0000

Every day i travel in the metro to go and come back from work.I enjoy observing people there.It's a whole new world...
Here is a picture from a photo-session a friend of mine made for an art-project.

summer

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Sun, 31 May 2009 19:52:00 +0000

Summer has come and with it - the need to listen to "light" music that makes my head airy :) I catch muself more and more often just giving into the music and not thinking of anything else at all (which happens very rarely to me. It is so nice...
Something mysrerious is happening - last week wherever I entered, I was chased by the Jai Ho! song from Slumdog Millionaire. Seems even after I let go of India, it is still after me :) (There is something utterly conforting in accepting that something is a part of you beyond a lifetime)
***
Anyways...
I am starting a new job, back in Sofia.Challenging and meaningful :)
Excited about some projects of my own I want to launch.
Lots of books to read, some tentative travel plans. (Would love to check out Serbia, Romania and Istanbul and why not Greece in the nearest future :))
In any case - this summer promises to be at least as exciting as the last two ones ;)
And I will plunge in it!

Why do always the most beautiful souls find love so hard?

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Mon, 25 May 2009 15:56:00 +0000

question asked - answer given

"Because they just LOVE in another way, like level up. They can sacrifice themselves but not Love principles. They call with the word Love only the Love itself and nothing else. They love because they do - not because they need to.
That is why."

i dunno if it is the wrong or the right answer
I just know that
you were my saviour when I had lost hope
now it is my turn to be yours
and that
what goes around really does come around

a quote

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Tue, 19 May 2009 17:27:00 +0000

"...she wanted words with the heft of stainless steel, sounds that have been boiled clean, like a surgeon's instruments, tools with nothing attached except meaning that could be looked up in a dictionary - empty of pain and memory and inwardness"
/ from The Hungry Tide by Amitav Ghosh /

scary

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Fri, 15 May 2009 19:58:00 +0000

Sometimes I feel so much Indian it scares me.

the foolstop.

noreply@blogger.com (Sve) — Tue, 12 May 2009 21:34:00 +0000

Sitting with a friend at a wonderfully romantic patio cafeteria in the centre of Sofia i got the moral of the story uttered from her mouth.
"It is amazing how many lives are ruined just because some words are not said when they had to be said".
True. We stick to silence when words can mean a ground-shaking change in our lives. When we get the guts to use the words finally, they usually hang in to the air - deprived of their power, lost their charm and empty. Nothing more sad than words uttered not on time.
But then, she also said:
"Whatever could have happened is better to be left behind. Everything else is a melodrama".
And that two sentences made the end of the story. A perfecly round and neat foolstop from which a whole new world is drawn.