On books...

If you could give one book as a present to a close friend... what would it be?
And why?

The beauty of random conversations...

I have always had the habit of stricking conversations with strangers.In trains and buses, on the street or in cafes.
I don't know why it happens, maybe there is something in me that makes people feel comfortable with having a random talk.
And I find these random conversations really charming...Maybe because, when meeting people by chance, knowing that you might probably not meet them again, makes both you and them more honest. And the conversations are more real.
Talking with strangers is a wonderful way to get a glimpse of their world, of different aspects of life itself...
And it is so exciting to share the positive emotion of a good-hearted chat.
One of the small, daily pleasures of life I love:)

back

Back to Sofia.
walking the same streets that bring so many memories.
breathing the air that seems fresh and clean.
sipping a large cappucino in my favourite Onda opposite the Russian church.
recieving unexpected calls.
meeting unexpected people.
spending time with close friends.
smiling.
a lot.
the look at people's faces when they first see me.
having my schedule full with meeting people.
drinking wine and eating cheese.
making tentative plans for concerts, parties, trips.
nothing has changed much in Sofia.
it is grey, dirty...a little sad.
nothing has changed...
except me.

thank you for the music...:)

Moving in the black and yellow Ambassador around the evening streets of Delhi.
Saying 'goodbye' for a while...God knows how long the while will be.
I will miss the place. Although it is dirty and crowded with human bodies. With sorrows and struggles.
I have started loving it.
One year in India has gone by so quickly, yet it is so full of intense experiences that, when I turn back, I cannot see anything negative. I see faces of people that have grown dear to my heart and that I will always remember and mention in my silent prayers, even if I never see them again. I see lots of love given and recieved.Lots of valuable lessons learned...
Maybe this is the reason that I have the sun smiling in my eyes lately...

Life is unpredictable.
You never know...:)

Counting my blessings...

Recently I met someone, in fact Exupéry's Little Prince in reality...An amazing boy who always has this beautiful smile on his face...and he told me something very simple and beautiful. He said:

If you want to be happy take some time every day to count your blessings.

So today I had so many reasons to feel blessed.
A surprise call from a close friend made me smile for a good 3 minutes while on the phone.
It is amazing what significant role cheese and olives play in our lives :)
I had lunch with the team. How didn't I realize before how delicious Indian food is...daal, Kashmiri rice, aloo gobi, tandoori aloo and rotis. It was amazing to have this food. With these 4 people.

It was about love and being thankful for what I am and what I have.
And about prayer.

I pray that the people I love are healthy, safe and at least as blessed as I am!
And in case u do not believe in prayers, I can assure you - prayers DO work! Once an Angel told me that :)

under the stars

and she was there
under the stars...
untamed
free
happy
she danced wildly
looked at the stars
spoke a bit with some people
thought about the men she loves
and she tried to escape the sticky stares and fake compliments
she thought how much u look like your mother
and wished you could be there
but she will let things happen and trust life.
and continue re-tuning the vibration to get the right frequency.

before you jump

it is just the moment before you jump
when you are scared from the water
yet welcoming, expecting its cold embrace
you want to feel its powerful fingers grip your limbs
and the tender touch of a warm current caress your skin
it's the first time
the comeback
the plunge from one world to the other
the clash of civilizations
the life before that never equals the life after
places change
people change
you change
life is change
it is just the moment before you jump
the essence of existence on the tip of a moment
exciting
exhilirating
pulsating
everything poised on the line of balance
your whole being is expecting the jump
but you are not in a hurry
you are here
now
vibrating with the heartbeat of the Universe
with a heart full of sun rays
and hope shining in the curls of your hair
you know that you are not the best swimmer
but you trust the water
and you love the water
it will never let you down.

black...with a little bit of silver lining

today was black
woke up with the sound of pigeons making love in the AC box.
just as I did one month back.
Remember?
same but not quite so.
all day black thoughts were creeping in my mind.
terror attacks. war with pakistan.kashmir.gaza.gas crisis in bulgaria.
my heart was so heavy with only one single question.
where the hell is this world going...?
seems like i have woken up from a dream, to find myself in a nightmare.
and i recieved a very strange mail today from my yoga teacher
it said that we are entering a 20 day astrological period where some disturbing and negative events can be expected - like misunderstandings between people, confusion, problems...
what was recommended was
patience
self-reflection and evaluation of life
music
meditation
meetings with old friends
attention to details
well...that is exactly what I intend to do...hope it brings some silver lining...

Love lessons

Lesson number One: Love is the unity of two beings, in which they stand together, equal. Love, but never try to lead, modify or change. It is about accepting as it is or accepting it is not meant to be.

Lesson number Two: Love hurts. It is incredibly hard to let go and love with the pure, unconditional love that does not ask for anything in return. But if you manage to do it, you are one step closer to the Divine and to happiness.

Lesson number Three: Just when you think that you have lost your ability to love, there comes someone that you find worthy of your love.He/she comes to prove a point - do not ever loose your faith in love.

Lesson number Four: Sometimes love comes in the form of a collision. It comes to shake you out of your comfortable zone, makes you ask yourself lots of uncomfortable questions, makes you search for answers and change.

All of these are beautiful. Thank God for letting me learn them.

Lesson number Five: Let's see what it will be...

parallel worlds

She exists in two parallel words...
The world "here and now", the what people call "material world" is just a temporary stop.
With little bridges to the real world beyond, the world of the eternal soul.
A Saturday afternoon in the misty Lodi gardens, around tombs with smeared outlines and mosques that someone has woven poetry into.
Meaningful solitude.
Cosmic music.
Sensual pleasures that pull u out of the mundane and place u in the whirlpool of very personal, yet very universal emotions.
The feeling of closeness beyond physical presence.
She is sometimes so bored by the "here and now"...
Thank God for the real world!

On the first day of 2009...

My eyes are full of
blue skies
tired smiles
beautiful words
colourful people
intriguing book covers
My head is full of
questions
plans for the near future
doubts
memories of precious moments from the last year
thoughts about love and loved ones
quotes from "Shantaram"
My heart is full of
hope
desire
hunger to live
forgiveness
love
sorrow
happiness.
If I have to judge the year from the first day of it, 2009 is going to be an interesting one...