Cooking

I cannot cook.
I used to bake cakes and cookies when I was at school.
Loved it:)
But somehow priorities changed, time became less, I moved out of home.
And never got into cooking...
However, India sort of sparkled my interest in the art of cooking.
Many reasons I guess. First being that Indians are such foodies. You can hardly resist getting into cooking when everyone around adores food and knows how to cook!
Besides, I am kind of tired eating in the same food-court every single day. A diet of chinese noodles-rice-mcDonalds-subway is not the best one can have.
I am experimenting now.
It is rather amusing...I just love mixing spices, putting unexpected ingredients into the dish.
Raisins. Honey. Pomegranade.
I guess in the beginning I will need a lot of guideance...But when I get better I will definitely put cookbooks aside.
Who needs them anyways?
It's an art. And all you need is inspiration, love and someone to share the end result with :)

Mumbai terror.Next is what?

After the terror attacks in Mumbai, Neeraj has writen a post that made me think where does India stand.What I realized frightened me a bit...
It is my own perspective of course. I have always said I love this country and I really hope the best for its people. As I love their zest for life, their spirituality and bright minds...
India as a one is a myth, a very fragile balance. I am still amazed how this country is kept together...Every state is different, people from north to south, form east to west do not like each other, hindus and muslims and sikhs are living in a state of constant tension, poor are as poor as can be and rich - as rich.
Still, as if by God's will, the country stays together.
In India, people do not obey rules. They are not disciplined. Still the country leaps ahead.
But how sustainable this progress can be? India is, undoubtedly, capable of being a global power. Ambition is also there. But can global leadership be achieved without a unity? How quickly can serious challenges as mass poverty and lack of basic education be dealt with? How do you reassure the world that India is a great place to invest in and to visit after what happened?
Indians value their freedom and take pride in being a democracy. But is the democracy the right way to achieve the ambitious goals India has set for itself? And where does the line go between being liberal and loosing the reins?

Goodnight...

sometimes at night when sleep is avoiding me
i start thinking
where you are
if you are alone
in bed
at a party
talking
loving
eating
sometimes i want to sit down and write
but i force my heart to sleep
then i am at peace
i often wonder r u what i think u are
or u are not real
and when is it going to end this time
and when is a good time to put it into words
is there a good time at all
goodnight now
i hope u sleep well

My amazing life recently...

Ok...this is what happened to me in the last week...
On Saturday I was a model, ramp-walking in front of all Alcatel-Lucent in NCR employees and their families (around 2500 ppl). Being groomed, dressed up etc etc.
It was so much fun!:)
I had late conversations with what i believe is a God-sent ambassador. He saved me from ruining the happiness of someone that means a lot to me.Made me realize once again how hard it is to really love. And how far I can go for love...
Emo, my ex-team mate from the Bulgarian MC called in and we met and chatted for this and that. People we know and their lives around the world. Our own amazing lives...Feels good to meet someone that u have shared so much with in the past :)
I had a wild Friday night out with some colleagues. Almost went to extremes...I needed that!
Today I met Alcatel-Lucent global CEO - Ben Vervyaawen. Very energetic and charismatic man! Had breakfast with his wife who is so nice :)No star-attitude, very pleasant to talk to...
I also made a decision to move to Delhi. Try to shift my social circle a bit.
A friend of a friend from Bulgaria called. She is gonna live in Delhi for the next 4 years. And she seems quite a nice person. So exciting I am going to have someone that speaks my language here :)
All in all...pretty amazing :)
Now what is left - to get peace of mind...seems to hard at the current state of affairs. I am more and more learning how to use mind control over feelings...Let's see how long I will manage...

Farewell...

Take care of your heart while I am away she said...
I wish I knew how...

***

she is the one capable of loving
till reaching the painful edge
she would not settle down for small bits of u
she wants u all
to taste u
to devour u
to indulge in u
she wouldn't sleep, thinking about the things u could do together
she would send u those tiny signs that only u can read if u decide to tune into her frequency
she would observe your every move, analyize your every word, notice the small imperfections of your body
a birth mark here
a strange earlobe
she could make u very happy
she could make u cry
she could make u love her
u will hate her as well
she would go that extra mile for u
if u just let her
yet
she knows
it is not going to happen
cause u have your happiness outlined
and she loves u too much
to steer u away from it...

Happiness

I do not believe in happiness as a constanta...
Happiness is a fleeting sensation. You need a great skill to make it a state of mind.
Every day when I stop to think I realize how blessed I am to have what I have.
I realize that I have been to places for which people only dream about.
I am hanging aroud with a vibrant young crowd of amazing people from across the world.
Maybe I am a bit careless - not worrying too much about the future, not hurrying up the career ladder, not searching for the one to build a family with...not even sure what I want to do for a living.
Yet someone said - it is not important how you will feel in future, but how u feel now. Live for the moment!
The picture above is from the Indian ocean coast. Spent 3 days there with a bunch of very cool people.Some of them I might not meet again. But the happiness that I felt will linger on :)
When I turn back and explore these 9 last months in India...I see a string of such beads of happiness...And a circle of people, spread around the world that I know will always treasure and share this beads of happiness with me.
Thank you for being a part of my life!