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This is my world online. A place to share my thoughts and feelings...A place for you to get a glimpse in my inner world:)

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Gay bachelor's party - WTF?


Yesterday I was invited to a gay bachelor's party.
I dunno why immediately when I heard the invitation I pictured myself among 20 gays and lesbians and one stupid man-streaper.
It gave me the shivers just to imagine that:)
And I am not homo-fobic.
Let's just say - enough is enough for now with gay friends!

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Monday, June 25, 2007

Jazz-snake

The following video is the exam performance of a very ambitious young guy I happened to know through Internet.
He is studying in the National Academy for Theatre and Film and wants to be a director. Recently he won a prize for a new, unpublished novel.
He also enjoys making photographs.
Here is the video, which I think is quite fresh :)

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Saturday, June 23, 2007

My trip to Auschwitz-Birkenau


I am sorry to start my stories for Krakow with this one.But I have always felt somehow over-empathic with the Holocaust story. And the concentration camps were a place I definitely wanted to visit, although Mimka was trying to convince me it was no use to spoil my great mood with such a gloomy place.
Yet, I do not regret, although it was quite a distressing and tiring journey.
The Auschwitz-Birkenau camp is some two hours drive away from Krakow, I was travelling with an old bus that did not have proper air-condition and was stopping to pick up people literally every 10th minute. Well, that was some way of getting "into the atmosphere", I guess.
When we finally reached, I was quite surprised to see how touristic the place is. Indeed - I dunno why I should be surprised - I should have expected that.
Yet, my perception of the camps, created from watching black-and-white movies and pictures was of a gloomy, dark and lonely place. Well, with all the tourists - it wasn't. The weather was also quite nice, the surroundings - green (in fact, the Nazi propaganda had made pictures of the area, presenting prisoners sitting on the grass, eating and chatting - to convince the mass that Auschwitz was a relatively nice place to be). I guess it would be much more touching if I went during winter, when it is freezing and gloomy.

Anyways - I am happy to have taken the guided tour, as our guide really showed us the most important things and I learned a lot (although I considered I knew pretty much on the topic).
The tour started at Auschwitz, which is comprised of brick barracks and now each of these barracks has an exhibition of some of the evidence from the Nazi atrocities. There are some of the personal belongings of Jewish people and prisoners - piles of shoes, suitcases, glasses, even kitchen utensils. These Nazi bastards were so utilitarian that they used the womens hair to make fabrics. And when the guide said they even used the clothes of the children they have sent to the gas chambers to dress-up their own kids - that really gave me the shivers! She also showed us the cells were prisoners were kept (in the camps there were prisoners - mostly intellectuals, or people fighting against the Nazi and all the rest - the inmates were sent there simply because they were Jewish, gay, Gypsies or just didn't appeal to the Nazis)No windows, something like 1 sq. meter of space - to punish the ones that try to help a fellow prisoner or simply do not manage to come on time for the morning camp roll-call.
They also showed us the only one gas chamber left - the smallest one (the Nazi build other two in Birkenau, as this one was so insufficient, but just before liberation they set them on fire). Gloomy place, smelling of death. Here, as well, they used EVERYTHING that can be used from the dead bodies - ashes, golden teeth (around 5 kilos of dental gold were sent to Deutche bank monthly)...This is so inhumanly utilitarian...reaching to monstrosity!
The tour ended with a short documentary on the liberation of the camps and then we headed to Birkenau, some 3 km away form the mother camp.

At first it didn't exist at all, but when the "Jewish question" was to be solved the Nazi started building it. Compared to Auschwitz it is huge, yet only several of the wooden barracks are left, all the others were demolished by the Nazi or the Russians. There, in Birkenau, people lived in an incredible living conditions, deprived of everything , even basic stuff necessary for surviving. That is why they lived averagely only 6 to 8 months...
I once again got the shivers when we went into the barrack. No heating, no proper isolation - they were freezing in the winter. Sleeping by tens in narrow wooden banks. No showers. Huge rats.
This was really depressing.
And the feeling to stand at the platform where families were separated, lies were told that "you must take a shower" and people sent immediately to death in the gas chambers. I walked the "road of death" that lead to the gas chambers.
Nothing to say at that point.
The place is so full of grief and evidence of incredible cruelty that I even couldn't feel sad. It is just so huge that my mind refused to accept that someone actually did that to more than 1 million human beings.
The thing is - it was not the only case in history for such atrocities. Stalin did the same in Russia, in Bulgaria during the communism there were camps as well...Now,genocide is still alive in some places around the world.
Sadly, human nature has remained so cruel and primitive as it was thousands of years ago.

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Friday, June 22, 2007

Brian Molko - my taste for androdynous men




Now you see - I am crazy :)

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Then and now


Me, one year ago in Varna, just before finishing University and starting my job at Capital.
Excited:)


Me,in Krakow, one year after I started being a journalist.
Disillusioned:(
Learned a lot:)

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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Placebo - a dream come true



I was at the concert yesterday:)I am so happy I managed to go.
One thing - these guys really rocked the house!
Amazing work!

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I love Krakow


Well...here I am, back from that amazing journey in the wonderful Krakow...
I knew nothing about the city when I started my journey, now I am full of stories and beauty:)
Indeed, the pictures are here.
What should I say - Krakow is one of the cities that make you feel at home almost immediately when you get off the bus. It has a wonderful atmosphere - of something ancient, historical and in the meantime - bohemian and cosmopolitan.
Lots of tourists (especially British hooligans, whose sole goal is to get drunk:) ) so the people of Krakow avoid the Ryinek Glovny (the Main Square) and its surroundings.
Anyways, as I had to explore it by myself, I should say - these were wonderful days of discovering beauty at expected and unexpected places.
Things I will surely remember (and some of them deserve a separate post here):
- The city is very compact - if you know the main square - you can get easily to any other place in the centre:)
- Lots of parks, accessibility for bikes and 24-buses
- All the time - life is burning and sizzling everywhere in the streets. Maybe because it was the 750th anniversary of the establishment of the city...Or maybe it is always like that. Especially at the Ryinek Glovny - action is always around in people dancing, performing, singing or playing some instrument.
- Nice little streets with nice tiny cafes where u can just sit with a book and drink a cappucino , forgetting about the time
- Interesting museums ( I only visited three though) but guided tours are preferrable (in some museums, like the Museum of Krakow history almost all writings are in Polish, which, excuse me, is a VERY tough language!)
Well,I really cannot say it all in one post...but if I have to say it in one sentence it might be:
I LOVE KRAKOW :)

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Friday, June 08, 2007

Krakow



Krakow,
Here I come!
To explore you and enjoy your beauties :)
Can't wait to reach there and see Mimka!
No work for the next 10 days!

Yupee:)

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Big Girls are Beautiful :)

At least Mika seems to think so...
How sweet:)

I love that part:

You take your girl
And multiply her by four
Now a whole lotta woman
Needs a whole lot more


Enjoy the video :)

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Sunday, June 03, 2007

Concert summer


This summer proves to be quite full of concerts.
As if all popular bands, singers and dancers just decided at once to come to Bulgaria (I do not see what took them so long. Maybe, after the EU accession they thought it is safe enough :) )
Names like Iron Maiden, Marlyn Manson, Placebo (for the second time), Chambao etc etc. Well - for most of the people in western countries it is normal to see them, but they just used to avoid Bulgaria, cause the market is to little and the prices of the tickets-too low.
Anyway - I am going to take advantage of this cool concert-packed summer.
I already went to see Belen Maya, the incredible Flamenco dancer that has inspired Carlos Saura to make "Flamenco". She was really unbelievable!
Then, I went to an INXS concert, but I didn't like it, cause the new lead singer looks more like the lead singer of a boy band than anything else.
Plans for the future include:

On the 18th of June - Placebo - I want that so much, as I missed the first concert! Problem is, I am travelling back from Poland...who knows if I will reach on time...Keeping my fingers crossed!

On the 23rd June - Yamato - the drummers of Japan. Promises to be really great. I already reserved some tickets and going to buy them tomorrow :)

On the 11th June - Chambao in Plovdiv - I love that music, I hope I get a chance for a day off :)

Hm, I guess that is not all...who knows :)

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Saturday, June 02, 2007

One of those days...

Today was one of those days...
You know what I am talking about - the days that are all full of little nice surprises and accidental meetings that make you happy:)
Well, going out to the office (as today is a normal working day, as tomorrow will be) I saw on the front door that my first postcrossing card had arrived from Finland:) Yupee!
I walked a bit down the street and just bumped in an old friend I have lost completely track of:) It was great to get her mobile number again (last time I tried to call, some guy picked up and insisted that there is "no such girl here") :)
Then, I had to work a bit...well, I really do not like working on weekends, but my trip to Krakow has to be compensated with an extra workload obviously.
After work I met a friend and we visited the "book fair" in the National palace of culture. I bought five (yes, five ;) ) books - mostly children's books - Karlson, who lives at the roof, one Bulgarian book, Winnie the Pooh's Dao and Pigglet's D and one 'serious' book by Haruki Murakami :)
I decided to visit some friends in Studentski grad and while travelling met one of the sweet salsa instructors. I have never talked to him much, so it was cool to discuss books and stuff. Actually on the bus back I met him once again, which was rather funny :)
I realized that the Placebo concert will take place on the 18th June (not 15th as I first understood), so...if my bus comes back from Poland in the right hour, I might be able to get to the concert! I want it so much...
Then, on coming back home I found another postcard from an unknown girl lying on my table. A beautiful photo of Lisbon (which I want to visit so much).
I love such days - they show me that sometimes things just happen. When you need them to.

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