love show

it's painless
letting your love show.

maybe, but not always.
how do i know if it is painless in this case?

do you know how it feels to love you?

do you know how it feels to love you?
brilliant.

free love

I read some interesting stuff in a magazine today.
When men cheat on their partners this has nothing to do with feelings. It is how they are programmed.
The female part of me wants to say "Yeah, right - good excuse as always"
The male part agrees - fair enough - we all need some change. Why not have some fun if it does not affect your priorities in your relationship.
Starting to understand more and more the concept of love a friend once shared
U can sleep with anyone you want, as long as you remain faithul to each other
Let's make it clear that this is freelove.

summer

Summer has come and with it - the need to listen to "light" music that makes my head airy :) I catch muself more and more often just giving into the music and not thinking of anything else at all (which happens very rarely to me. It is so nice...
Something mysrerious is happening - last week wherever I entered, I was chased by the Jai Ho! song from Slumdog Millionaire. Seems even after I let go of India, it is still after me :) (There is something utterly conforting in accepting that something is a part of you beyond a lifetime)
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Anyways...
I am starting a new job, back in Sofia.Challenging and meaningful :)
Excited about some projects of my own I want to launch.
Lots of books to read, some tentative travel plans. (Would love to check out Serbia, Romania and Istanbul and why not Greece in the nearest future :))
In any case - this summer promises to be at least as exciting as the last two ones ;)
And I will plunge in it!

protection.

needs no comment.
some songs just say it all.

rehab

I wanted to post this song for a long time
Every word of the lyrics falls into place...
Just a coincidence?
Or...

Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden
You went, left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shot
That spun me around
And now my heart left
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame

And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab and
Baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn,
Ain't it crazy when you're love swept?
You'll do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me
I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is
That you was using me
In a different way that I was using you
But now that I know, it's not meant to be
You gotta go, I gotta ween myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
The ways you hurt me
Do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame


And now I feel like, oh
You're the reason
Why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on
These cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get
For wishful thinking
I should've never let you enter my door
Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
Cause now I'm using like I bleed

home alone

home alone.
time to spoil myself with some nice things like...
hot, coffee flavoured bath
listening loud to Buena Vista Social Club on the gramophone
a glass of white wine
two-three spoonfulls of Nutella
and the latest translated in Bulgarian novel by Michael Cunningham - "Flesh and Blood"

sometimes it is good to be spoilt:)

My "late nite song" lately...

songs like that are such a beautiful
expression of the human soul
and people who write them are genius...



Precious and fragile things
Need special handling
My God what have we done to You?

We always try to share
The tenderest of care
Now look what we have put You through...

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

Angels with silver wings
Shouldn't know suffering
I wish I could take the pain for You

If God has a master plan
That only He understands
I hope it's Your eyes He's seeing through

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

I pray You learn to trust
Have faith in both of us
And keep room in Your heart for two

Things get damaged
Things get broken
I thought we'd manage
But words left unspoken
Left us so brittle
There was so little left to give

I will possess your heart

This is officially our new favourite song. Anca's and mine that is...
Enjoy :)


How I wish you could see the potential
The potential of you and me
It's like a book elegantly bound
But in a language you can't read just yet

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

There are days when outside your window
I see my reflection as I slowly pass
And I long for this mirrored perspective
When we'll be lovers, lovers at last

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart

You reject my advances and desperate pleas
I won't let you let me down so easily
So easily

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

You got to spend some time, love
You got to spend some time with me
And I know that you'll find love
I will possess your heart

I will possess your heart
I will possess your heart

Hmmmm

I used to love Brian Adams when I was in school.
Today I was listening to his songs and loved the lyrics of this one, so I am sharing with u :)
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I wanna be your t-shirt when i
t's wet - wanna be the
shower when you sweat
I gotta to be the tattoo on your skin - ya lemme be your
bed baby - when you climb in
I wanna be the sheets when you sleep - lemme be the
secrets that you keep
I gotta be the spoon - ta stir your cream
I wanna to be the one that really makes you scream
I wanna be - your lipstick when ya lick it
I wanna be - your high heels when ya kick it
I wanna be - your sweet love babe - ya when you make it
From your feet up to your hair - more than anything I swear

I wanna be - your underwear

I wanna be the itch that you scratch - wanna be your
chair when you relax
I got to be your razor when you shave
Wanna be the habit that really makes you crave
I wanna be - your hot tub - when you're dippin'
I wanna be - your bathrobe - when you're drippin'
I wanna be - your cocktail baby - when you're sippin'
I just wanna be right there - more than anything I swear

I wanna be - your underwear

Wanna be your sleepin' bag - baby slip inside
Let me be your motorcycle n' take ya for a ride -
alright
I wanna be - your hot sauce - ya when you're cookin'
I wanna be - your sunglasses - hey good lookin'
I wanna be - wanna be the one - ya stick your hook in'
I just wanna be right there - more than anything I swear
Oh ya I wanna be - your underwear

Tonight...

Too much sex yet too little erotica...
So sad :(

Give me a reason to ...

I'm so tired, of playing
Playing with this bow and arrow
Gonna give my heart away
Leave it to the other girls to play
For I've been a temptress too long

Just. .

Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
I just wanna be a woman

From this time, unchained
We're all looking at a different picture
Thru this new frame of mind
A thousand flowers could bloom
Move over, and give us some room

Give me a reason to love you
Give me a reason to be ee, a woman
I just wanna be a woman

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas :)

Do you remember the times when there was snow for Christmas? I haven't seen a "white Christmas" for two or three years now...And there is something really magical and beautiful in the snowy Christmas.
Anyways, today I realised that if you have a very strong desire for snow - your dreams come true.
Therefore, to bring some magical Christmas spirit, I invite you to sing along with Bing Crosby:)


I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten,
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

Meu Fado

I recently watched Carlos Saura's FADO.
Great movie. Great music. I was on the verge of tears.
This music is so emotional and has some deep feeling of sadness in it.
Here is one really great example Mariza - Meu Fado.
Dedicated to all people that are not ashamed to start crying when they hear such a beautiful song.

Oh, what a night!

This is just to give you a tiny hint of the crazy party I went to yesterday night. It was a double birthday party:) I think that maybe 30 or 40 people came and we were dancing like crazy :) Just great!

Popular songs Buena Vista style

Recently I came across a very nice compilation of popular songs.
But not just another boring "Best" CD, yet a very fresh one.
Cause all the songs are made in the style of Buena Vista :)
So, even the melancholic Coldplay might sound quite lively :)
Enjoy!

Folklore festival in the Sofia centre

Today was a really wonderful day :)
After the Trabi show, I finally found time to read some papers (yes, I am working at a newspaper, but rarely have time to red one ;)).
Then, with my collegue Assya (a very talented designer by the way)we went to a folklore festival organized in the city centre.
It was rather cool, there were groups from Bulgaria, Cyprus, Romania, Serbia, Hungary, Italy, Venezuela, China, Korea, Armenia.
The guys from Venezuela really made me go crazy. I just feel I need to learn Spanish and all kinds of latin dances.
I love salsa ( although in the last month I haven't been to serious with my salsa lessons).
Then, after Chambao and Belen Maya I got so inspired to start with flamenco.
And with Gotan project - tango :)

Anyways - the stupid thing about the festival was again the organization. First - mineral water was sold at a double price. Second - nobody thought that someone from the 500 people gathered around the park might need a toilet. Or a bench to sit.
I wonder when we will learn to do things in the proper way in Bulgaria...

The song that expresses my mood lately :)

Mika - Grace Kelly lyrics

In case you want to sing along.
Here is the video.

Placebo - a dream come true

I was at the concert yesterday:)I am so happy I managed to go.
One thing - these guys really rocked the house!
Amazing work!

Big Girls are Beautiful :)

At least Mika seems to think so...
How sweet:)

I love that part:

You take your girl
And multiply her by four
Now a whole lotta woman
Needs a whole lot more

Enjoy the video :)

Concert summer

This summer proves to be quite full of concerts.
As if all popular bands, singers and dancers just decided at once to come to Bulgaria (I do not see what took them so long. Maybe, after the EU accession they thought it is safe enough :) )
Names like Iron Maiden, Marlyn Manson, Placebo (for the second time), Chambao etc etc. Well - for most of the people in western countries it is normal to see them, but they just used to avoid Bulgaria, cause the market is to little and the prices of the tickets-too low.
Anyway - I am going to take advantage of this cool concert-packed summer.
I already went to see Belen Maya, the incredible Flamenco dancer that has inspired Carlos Saura to make "Flamenco". She was really unbelievable!
Then, I went to an INXS concert, but I didn't like it, cause the new lead singer looks more like the lead singer of a boy band than anything else.
Plans for the future include:

On the 18th of June - Placebo - I want that so much, as I missed the first concert! Problem is, I am travelling back from Poland...who knows if I will reach on time...Keeping my fingers crossed!

On the 23rd June - Yamato - the drummers of Japan. Promises to be really great. I already reserved some tickets and going to buy them tomorrow :)

On the 11th June - Chambao in Plovdiv - I love that music, I hope I get a chance for a day off :)

Hm, I guess that is not all...who knows :)

Rain

It has been raining for two days now.
It makes me a bit melancholic.
But Sofia is so clean and beautiful after the rain. And I feel so full of hope,beauty and dreams...
I am thinking of my favourite "rain" songs:

Singing in the rain

November rain

Kiss the rain

I'll take the rain

Purple rain

The Rain (a song by the Bulgarian singer Vanya Shtereva)

It's raining (by P.I.F)

Russian cartoons :)

To all the people that remember and love the Russian cartoons I would like to dedicate the following song.
I just grew up with Nu Pogodi.
There was no American or western cartoons at this time. So we loved them :)
And I just chose that song, as it always makes me remember my childhood and feel so sweetly melancholic.
Enjoy (even though birthdays come only once a year) :)

Sex sells everything

If you have any doubts, please see this video:

and this one:

You take one sexy girl and multiply her several times - voila - you have a great video. Who needs more, anyway?

My recent "party" song

First heard it at one OSTAVA after-party and have been in love ever since :)

My "goodnight" song

This is one wonderful LOVE song for saying "Goodnight".
And dreaming that I meet a guy like Robert Downey Jr...aaah
Sweet dreams:)
I just couldn't resist to post the lyrics as well.
Goodnight lovers:)
Goodnight dreamers:)

I want love, but it's impossible
A man like me, so irresponsible
A man like me is dead in places
Other men feel liberated

I can't love, shot full of holes
Don't feel nothing, I just feel cold
Don't feel nothing, just old scars
Toughening up around my heart

But I want love, just a different kind
I want love, won't break me down
Won't brick me up, won't fence me in
I want a love, that don't mean a thing
That's the love I want, I want love

I want love on my own terms
After everything I've ever learned
Me, I carry too much baggage
Oh man I've seen so much traffic

So bring it on, I've been bruised
Don't give me love that's clean and smooth
I'm ready for the rougher stuff
No sweet romance, I've had enough

"Love is not a competition ...

...but I'm winning"
Keiser Cheifs sing in one of their songs.
Which just reminded me of one favourite "love" songe of mine lately.
It reminds me of love that never happened
Love in Paris
Love on the road
Love in a caravane
Gypsy love
Freedom...
L'amour fou...

My "angry" song

I really like Placebo and I think I can classify more than one from their songs in the "angry" song category.
Here is "The Bitter end"
I think i love Brian's androginy (that must have sounded reaaaaly crazy:) )
Can't wait for the concert!

My songs

I just watched the Bulgarian music TV and an actress was presenting her favourite songs. I decide to do so here...
The first thing that comes to my mind is "my travel song" - The Cardigans - My favourite mistake.
I dunno if it is because of the video, but when I hear the song I really want to get on a car and drive at high speed till I go somewhere...In the middle of nowhere:)
Enjoy the video, I am back to French!
C'est la vie...

I'm not crazy...

In case you need to sing you can get the lyrics here. :)

A favourite song

Once I used to love that Bulgarian band called PIF quite a lot. They wrote meaningful texts and made beautiful music. I guess it was a part of my grunge-romantic period :)
Then, some of the band members left...so the magic was gone.
I still enjoy listening to the music. Brings back so many beautiful memories of concerts and people.
Enjoy...:)

Cuban dreams

Here is a song that sounds so Cuban to me and makes me dream so much of visiting Cuba...Enjoy:)

More music...Nina Simone (or how beauty can save you from madness)

Ain't got no/I got lifeAin't got no home, ain't got no shoes
Ain't got no money, ain't got no class
Ain't got no skirts, ain't got no sweater
Ain't got no perfume, ain't got no beer
Ain't got no man

Ain't got no mother, ain't got no culture
Ain't got no friends, ain't got no schooling
Ain't got no love, ain't got no name
Ain't got no ticket, ain't got no token
Ain't got no God

What about God?
Why am I alive anyway?
Yeah, what about God?
Nobody can take away

I got my hair, I got my head
I got my brains, I got my ears
I got my eyes, I got my nose
I got my mouth, I got my smile
I got my tongue, I got my chin
I got my neck, I got my boobs

I got my heart, I got my soul
I got my back, I got my sex
I got my arms, I got my hands
I got my fingers, Got my legs
I got my feet, I got my toes
I got my liver, Got my blood

I've got life , I've got my freedom
I've got the life

And I'm gonna keep it
I've got the life
And nobody's gonna take it away
I've got the life

Since I started with music today...

I am posting a video of one of my favourite Bulgarian bands - Ostava.
It is called "President" and it was released just before I became a Member committee president.
Is't ironic:)
Enjoy

Melancholic love song

Yesterday, while searching for some songs of Sergio Mendes, I found this lovely melancholic love song "Please Baby Don't". Such songs (like Jazzamor's "Way Back") make me feel so much in love, without anyone being the reason of it...
Here are the lyrics and you can hear a bit of it here:

Please Baby Dont (Sergio Mendes ft. John Legend)

Please Baby Don’t - Sergio Mendes
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me
Please baby don't (baby don't)
You know my history
See honey I (honey I)
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you)
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me

Don't fall in love with me

I've been cruisin down this road for a while now,
I should tell the truth...
Girl you've been so good to me but I know
I'm no good for you
You should run while you can
Find yourself a better man
'Cause I'm known for brief romance
And breakin hearts across the land

Yes I've been known to have a few temptations
Out there on the road
And let's say hypothetically I've slipped and
Took a couple home
Girl I know that's not fair
You need someone who'll be there
So just get away before it's too late
and you're pain is too much to bear

Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me
Please baby don't (baby don't)
You know my history
[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

See honey I (honey I'm)
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you)
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me

(rhodes piano solo)

Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me
Please baby don't (baby don't)
You know my history
See honey I'm (honey I'm)
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you)
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me

Now on second thought maybe we'll give
This love another try
'Cause I can't see you with no one else
I'm selfish I can't lie
So let's go, let's go slow
You know all you need to know
It could end one day but
Let's just say we'll see how far it goes

Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me
Please baby don't (baby don't)
You know my history
See honey I'm (honey I'm)
I'm just trying to warn you (let me warn you)
Please baby don't (baby don't)
Don't fall in love with me

I lost myself...in the summer rain

If you feel down...this song might help. At least it helps me:)

Summer Rain -U2
When you stop seeing beauty
You start growing old
The lines on your face
Are a map to your soul

When you stop taking chances
You'll stay where you sit
You won't live any longer
But it'll feel like it

I lost myself in the summer rain
I lost myself
I lost myself in the summer rain
In the summer rain

Tequila and Orange
Jamaica and rum
At the Moreilla
Honey on my tongue

In a small boat on a generous sea
You let me be your enemy
Tiny hand
With a grip on the world
Holding our breath now
Diving for pearls

I lost myself in the summer rain
I lost myself
I lost myself in the summer rain
Oh oh, oh oh

Just as you find me
Always I will be
A little bit too free
With myself

Just as you find me
Always I will be
A little bit too free
With myself

I lost myself in the summer rain
I lost myself
Now there's no one else
In the summer rain




Raining down
It's raining down
It rain

Raining now
Raining now

Just as you find me
Always I will be
A little bit too free
With myself

Just as you find me
Always I will be
A little bit too free
With myself

(Cha cha cha)
It's not why you're running
It's where you're going
It's not what you're dreaming
But what you're gonna do

It's not where you're born
It's where you belong
It's not how weak
But what will make you strong