Time to relax and reflect in Varna

Since last Friday I am staying at a friend's place in Varna. This is a short break before I sign a contract which will allow me to go on vacation after...only 8 months...which means April 2007 the earliest:)
And I am starting to plan from now to go on ISP in Croatia in the summer:P
Yet, now , I am in Varna, before my final thesis on Friday and trying to enjoy myself...
Me and Mury (my friend) are having fun - just relaxing, walking on the beach, talking...She will leave to work on an ocean liner for 6 months. I am somehow worried about her, as she is so fragile.I know she will handle it, but on the other hand I must admit that I wouldn't stand to go through what she has gone - be away from my family and friends, have a hard job and noone to lean on.

Walking in Varna, strangely, brings me memories mostly of my times in AIESEC. Maybe it is not so abnormal - after all my years at university were mainly AIESEC years. But the strange thing is that I almost do not have memories, or at least I do not feel so much for my 4-year relationship. The streets I am walking, the places I go to...I hardly seem to connect them to times, spent with my boyfriend. Sofia, on the contrary burdens me with memories, connected with a very painful emotional experience.
Maybe that is why I feel so free here - no memories, no painful pictures, sounds and words.Only shadows of happy days, being satisfied with the love I had.
What made me change this?
Why did I run after a dream?
Or maybe, I am always running...
At least, I have the sea. It stays there. No matter where I may run...