Random thoughts...

Number 1:
Am I not a true emotional exhibitionist? Having two blogs, discussing my emotional state with my closest friends?Am I not the same as the person that I fear I might be?
Was I like that before I moved to Sofia?

Number 2:
I recently realised that I am closing in myself.When I am walking down the streets I put the music and just switch of the entire surrounding world. Isn't the music a way to close myself in my little world where the bad things from this one cannot reach me?

Number 3:
Yesterday I stayed at the office till 1.30 a.m. for the first time. It was disturbingly exciting. It will become a routine I guess, even a boring responsibility maybe...Still I am very worried not to become "grey" and loose my dreams. Everybody around seems so engulfed in their own life and so business - cold...I do not want to be like that!

Number 4:
Am I really expecting too much of people and of life? Am I really searching for some extraordinary feelings?Why cannot I be satisfied with what I have? Why cannot I stop searching? Will my life end on the track chasing a dream?