I am not AngelA...unfortunately

Yesterday I watched the latest film of Luc Beson - AngelA. It was about a guy who had everything screwed-up and God send him an Angel (in the body of a very beautiful woman...) to help him believe in himself more and live his life in peace with the others.
The film is really good, posing a lot of questions on God, love, self-esteem and life.
It was a rather personal experience indeed - this film. Especially at the scene when the Angel was telling him "You cannot say "I love you" as nobody ever said this to you" it was as if I saw my everyday struggles.
Everyday I try to convince myself that I should stop thinking about you, but the moment I think that you are hiding deep in your own nutshell and refusing to accept any love, even the one, given from God...I feel so much pain. You wrote that we will never see each other again and this shattered my world. Again.
I somehow feel that you need to be loved.I believe God has meant me to love you, so you are protected...cause you are so fragile...
I just want you to be safe. And me - to be free.
As my soul is captured now...and I almost cannot breathe...
I am feeling lost, desperate and hopeful at the same time.
Time is my biggest friend and enemy now.
But, whereas the film has a happy-end, I really doubt that my story will end with one. We will probably be happy...but not together.