HOMEless, JOBless, LOVEless, DIPLOMAless...but still not desperate...

Well...
Tough times :) Interesting times.
I have only 11 days till the end of my term.
I feel lost. I want to help, but I don't know how. Anyway - nobody seems to be asking for my help.
I was wondering, how can one loose his/her passion for AIESEC.How can one burn out...and stop caring so much.
Now I think I know!I still feel a great commitment and responsibility towards the organisation, yet..nobody seems to need me anymore.
Anyways...
I am home-less. Dunno where I will be living in two weeks:) Sofia, Varna...
I am job-less.I applied for several positions.Yes, I am not applying for everything. Still no answer.I am getting nervous...
I am love-less. When we met last time - I understood that you really need me, but you are so damn afraid of me...and this is so SAD.But I cannot cry anymore.I am sorry...
I am DIPLOMA-less.If I do not manage to take my diploma in June i will be dead. My mum will kill me for sure...
Well...in terms of money:)They are never enough...:)
However...I am trying to be POSITIVE:) And repeat myself - it is going to be alright:)
I am feeling excited...To plunge into the great unknown:) To have some steps back and see AIESEC from the outside...To start my new life.
It is going to be my third "new start" ...once in Varna...once in Sofia ...once in...the real world:)
Let's see what happens!