my ...love?

How long has it been...
Since June 2005...when u sent me this message that you are afraid "you might be falling in love".
How many sleepless nights and how many tears...I didn't know then that I am capable of feeling so much pain. No I do. And I am thankful.
I learned a few lessons. I will remember them during my life.
I learned there are soulmates. Truly...people that you just feel a spiritual connection with. A connection that is over the physical bounderies of time and space. You may barely know them. But you never ask questions, as - it seems they are a part of you- there is a silent understanding between you, a sort of a "contract" that others cannot understand.
I learned that true love is sometimes impossible in real life. Maybe somewhere and someday, when we are stripped naked - left with our spiritual self only - we can be one. Not now, though. For this life - I know that I should let you choose your path. Not try to make you "love me" at any price. If you really love someone - set them free, there was a song i think...
Now I see that you are excited that we will meet again. But how close will you let me? Will you let me hold your hand?Or kiss you?Or ask you personal questions?Will you run away when I seem to be too close?
And why do I persist with this? Why don't I give up and search for another one...
Wish I knew...